September 2011
but i really want to be in england. i want to prance across the cobbles, navigate the traffic and the construction outside kings cross and hop on the 9:40 to edinburgh. get lost lost lost in york, find the house of madness and stay at the bar all afternoon. i want my accent to explode and get proper north because it feels right. i want to wander outside the walls for three hours until it’s...
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now i will listen to ice water on repeat. now i will make it fourteen times worse and take a cold shower because it feels harsh on my skin and it makes me awake and then i will look at the time like i am now. eight forty-nine. evening time. but then it will be later and it will be okay to sleep. and the tireds will overtake and then i will wakeupandworkfuck. i want to go home please.
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this feeling. this is that one i do not like.
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“I’m not brave any more darling. I’m all broken. They’ve broken me.”
– Ernest Hemingway (via incapacityinc)
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August 2011
i have been rendered completely incapable of expressing the things in my mind. ce n’est pas possible maintenant. c’est pas possible ici.
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i don’t understand what i’m supposed to be doing if i’m not working.
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“There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in.”
– Leonard Cohen (via lucystardust)
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at present
my life consists of working in the back offices that should have had renovation already started. i am surrounded by boxes and locked cabinets of wine and label-makers. i am sorting 416 invoices and eating just as many crackers. also, listening to crystal castles, ignoring every page i get. thank you.
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Slide Away Oasis Definitely Maybe (1994) let me be...
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“There is a time for departure
even when there’s no certain place to go.”
– Tennessee Williams (via creatingaquietmind)
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hourglasss replied to your post: not the harsh kind of lonely, the hollow kind. the kind that makes it hard not to close your eyes to everything.
You should post more writing : )
wow, that kinda blew my mind! i don’t write. it is mostly unpleasant for me to record things. combination severe l’espirit d’escalier and ocd. but wow, that’s really nice! hi.
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not the harsh kind of lonely, the hollow kind. the...
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Patti Smith forevah. →
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“Never again will you be capable of ordinary human feeling. Everything will be dead inside you. Never again will you be capable of love, or friendship, or joy of living, or laughter, or curiosity, or courage, or integrity. You will be hollow. We shall squeeze you empty and then we shall fill you with ourselves.”
—George Orwell, 1984
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ragandbonesympathy replied to your post: things i miss hopeless carelessness someone to…
I love how close the both of you are.
totally bawling my eyes out right now haha this situation makes me feel so old and man it sucks to grow sometimes.
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things i miss
hopeless carelessness someone to ride the beepbeepjeep with someone to blame when things break playing hockey with a tennis ball and brooms in the kitchen shattering every single coffee pot we ever owned doing so seamlessly quoting rocketman nonstop
tonight i visited my brother at college. driving home was sad and i thought too much about being a small and vaguely happy child....
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“I may have lost my heart, but not my self-control. ”
– Jane Austen (via thenocturnals)
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“Expectation is the root of all heartache”
– William Shakespeare (via day488)
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i would like to sit dead centre in those cornfields, hidden. to see and hear the wind whipping the stalks around, forcing them down and over and around. i just want to stand outside and taste the rain, the clouds and fog. and still not feel a damn thing. it is a strangely calm and peaceful, such a grey day. grey is my favourite. it is a pearly pretty sky with dim light and shadowed thoughts.
